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At the wall where the farmhouse is afforded the least possible visibility from the more crowded areas of the farm, a quarter-lump of brick falls pointlessly to the ground. Mel, nursing her knuckles, glares at it.

She's familiar with the practice, when you're so pent up with frustration and anger and hatred that you have to punch something, of finding an innocent wall and taking it out on that, and is annoyed to fins out that a) it's not nearly as satisfying as common wisdom holds, and b) it's much much less of a good idea when there's a possibility you might actually win a fight with a building.

She nudges the brick against the base of the house, deciding she'd better get Toph to reattach it later, and turns her attention back to her hand.

Frustration not satisfied, hand hardly injured, house probably not hurting that much from its loss. All in all, a completely no-win situation.

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"Yeah," Dean agrees. "Smells like old, dead things. I like things're alive, personally."

His hand on her shoulder slides up a little so he can rub her neck with his thumb gently.

There's a beat in which Mel's still; no change in attitude or position or facial expression, she's just still. And it's more obvious how relaxed she very much isn't.

"Yeah, me too."

"No kidding."

Dean doesn't stop rubbing her shoulder, gently.

"You gonna keep beating the buildings up for it?"

"No."

Mel's shoulder is more than tense; it's rock-hard. But her neck stretches towards his thumb as it begins to do the work of easing it.

"I'd just like to go a month without someone in my family dying or turning evil. I'm running out."

"Yeah, I kinda know whatcha mean." Dean thinks of that other Sam in Lawrence, frowning. He shifts a little against the wall and tugs Mel's shoulder. "C'mere."

So he can do the massage thing properly, if in an amateurish way.

She obeys without fuss, exhaling in relief as she lifts her hair out of the way and around the front of her shoulders.

"Kinda?"

"Well, I didn't have that much family t'start with," Dean says, both hands on her shoulders to knead carefully, tongue sticking out slightly in concentration.

"Thought I'd run out a couple years back. Turned out I was wrong." Luckily.

"Yeah," Mel says. "I thought I had, too. I was wrong, but seems it was only 'cause losing them the first time wasn't painful enough.

"What happened with you?"

Dean massages her shoulders quietly for a moment.

"Made a deal t'bring him back."

Mel's hands cover his, stilling them for a moment. The side-effect of that is - he can feel the strength with which she swallows.

"Did it work?"

Dean swallows.

"Yeah. Cost somethin', though."

Mel slides her hands down from his, using one to push her hair back so when she turns her head she can see him.

She's had three people back so far (not counting Erin) two of them were disasters.

"What?"

"Me." He goes back to rubbing her shoulders, meeting her gaze with a vague attempt at a smirk. "They gave me a year, though."

Mel breaks the gaze by glancing down, thinking.

It hasn't occured to her that this is more than a year ago.

After a second, she nods. "I'd've done that, once."

Those years without Harth, she'd've traded her life for his in a heartbeat.

Dean nods, understanding.

"I warned Sokka it could turn bad," he says after a minute, quietly. "Don't think I warned him enough, though.

"Told him the only guaranteed way t'make it work was - what I did, trading. He said he wouldn't. So there's that."

"...he knew," Mel says, after the pause that's beginning to punctuate every sentence in this conversation. She's looking forward again, hugging herself as she leans into his fingers. "We've seen it go bad - really bad."

Dean nods, quietly, stroking more than massaging now, smoothing hands over her shoulders.

"Thought you might've."

He breathes out.

"I probably shoulda been here. Might'a saved him that."

Manpain: Dean is the king of it. Even when he has no real reason to be.

"S'not your job. This family isn't. We handle our own toy."

Don't think she's not grateful, though. She's just too attached to her own feelings of guilt. Her eyes are wet, but she has the growing hint of a smile when she turns under his hands so she can face him, reaching her own hands up to his shoulders.

Dean leans back against the wall, hands sliding down her side to her waist, and regards her thoughtfully.

"Yeah, a'ight."

If he's OK with it, she's OK with it. and she knew he'd understand.

Mind for 'we handle our own toy', Mel includes using Winchesters as living stress toys. She pulls on his neck gently, reaching up so their lips meet.

Dean is more than okay with this. But he's slightly hesitant, pulling back after not very long at all.

"You want this, right?"

It kind of goes without saying that he does. But hell, if she wants to use sex to heal, Dean's not gonna complain.

"Yeah," Mel says, without hesitation.

"It's like you said; I like things that're alive."

"A'ight."

Dean doesn't need any more persuading to shift one hand to the back of her neck and to tighten the other a little more possessively on her waist, leaning in to kiss her again, intent and focused.

Mel's breathing deepens with the kiss, and with her eyes shut the tension continues to pour out of her. Instead of the tense and fierce energy that she had last time, there's a sense of deliberate letting go, and she lets him set the pace.

Dean can go with that.

"Sofa's occupied," he murmurs, lifting her up against him, eyes nearly closed himself. "Your room? My car?"