theresnodoor: (morph - Lucy (dragon))
Rachel ([personal profile] theresnodoor) wrote in [community profile] shatterverse2009-02-16 11:45 am

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There's an interesting little group making their way toward the Cooper farm. It consists of three smallish dragons and what looks like an enormous ball of light.

No one's said much on the way back. For Rachel, it's out of frustration. They took it down and that's a victory, but they didn't get the father, the guy that started the whole thing, and that's making her tack it down as a failure.

But she'll mention that when they land.

[identity profile] whoiwasmeant2be.livejournal.com 2009-02-16 03:23 am (UTC)(link)
Tobias turns away. Because he doesn't know. He doesn't want her to change, he knows that. But if she doesn't change she's going to get herself killed again. She burns so bright, but that can't last forever.

He's not sure what he'll do if... when it happens all over again.

[identity profile] whoiwasmeant2be.livejournal.com 2009-02-16 03:27 am (UTC)(link)
<I know,> he says quietly.

He takes a deep breath and morphs human.

[identity profile] whoiwasmeant2be.livejournal.com 2009-02-16 04:31 am (UTC)(link)
"I know," he repeats the words with difficulty. He swallows.

"It's part of..." why he loves her.

But the words he had planned to say are gone. He doesn't know how to explain how scared he is deep down. How much changed when he lost her. And then when he found her again.

[identity profile] whoiwasmeant2be.livejournal.com 2009-02-16 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
"This is how you still think of me, isn't it?" he asks somewhat sadly.

[identity profile] whoiwasmeant2be.livejournal.com 2009-02-16 04:59 am (UTC)(link)
"Maybe I'm hoping to find out I don't know the answers after all."

It almost hurts to say.

[identity profile] whoiwasmeant2be.livejournal.com 2009-02-16 05:11 am (UTC)(link)
"I'm nineteen," Tobias says softly from his thirteen year old mouth.

"You're..." he takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly. "You're just like I remember." Full of life and fury and the inability to quit.

"I'm the one who changed." Whether he means being a hawk or aging without her... it's not clear. Maybe he doesn't know.

[identity profile] whoiwasmeant2be.livejournal.com 2009-02-16 05:19 am (UTC)(link)
"So..." he swallows.

"I'm afraid..." he chokes on the rest. He can't say it. Can't admit it.

[identity profile] whoiwasmeant2be.livejournal.com 2009-02-16 05:26 am (UTC)(link)
"That I'm losing you." He's whispering. He doesn't even try to make sure he's loud enough to be heard. It's hard enough just to say the words.

[identity profile] whoiwasmeant2be.livejournal.com 2009-02-16 05:41 am (UTC)(link)
"Maybe it is my fault," he mumbles, eyes shifting to his feet. Maybe things would be better if he could just change for her.

[identity profile] whoiwasmeant2be.livejournal.com 2009-02-16 05:49 am (UTC)(link)
Tobias' head snaps up, eyes blazing. "Damn it, Rachel, don't do this to me!"

[identity profile] whoiwasmeant2be.livejournal.com 2009-02-16 06:02 am (UTC)(link)
"Our--" Tobias cuts himself off. He knows he can't win a fight with her. He never could. And losing this one might mean losing everything that matters.

So he snaps his mouth shut and shakes his head sadly.

[identity profile] whoiwasmeant2be.livejournal.com 2009-02-16 06:09 am (UTC)(link)
Tobias steps forward, movements jerky and angry and his hand flashes up to catch in her hair and pull her forward into a violent kiss.

[identity profile] whoiwasmeant2be.livejournal.com 2009-02-16 06:19 am (UTC)(link)
For one split second his expression is nothing but pain. That she'd push him away. That in his moment of reaching out she would pull back.

It's a sign of how out of practice he's gotten with human expressions that it takes him any time at all before he smooths his expression into a blank one. He hopes she doesn't notice.

He's almost sure she does.