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There's an interesting little group making their way toward the Cooper farm. It consists of three smallish dragons and what looks like an enormous ball of light.
No one's said much on the way back. For Rachel, it's out of frustration. They took it down and that's a victory, but they didn't get the father, the guy that started the whole thing, and that's making her tack it down as a failure.
But she'll mention that when they land.
No one's said much on the way back. For Rachel, it's out of frustration. They took it down and that's a victory, but they didn't get the father, the guy that started the whole thing, and that's making her tack it down as a failure.
But she'll mention that when they land.
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He's not sure what he'll do if... when it happens all over again.
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She glares at him.
"I'm going back in. And again and again until this is done. This is what I do, Tobias."
It's like asking him to give up his wings, asking her not to fight.
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He takes a deep breath and morphs human.
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It's when she realizes he's morphing human that Rachel stares and finishes the question.
"What are you doing?"
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"It's part of..." why he loves her.
But the words he had planned to say are gone. He doesn't know how to explain how scared he is deep down. How much changed when he lost her. And then when he found her again.
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But none of it explains why he's human in front of her.
Guarded, confused, Rachel waits for him to finish.
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After a moment, Rachel presses her lips together and takes a breath. But her words still come out softly, almost a whisper.
"Why do you keep asking me questions you already know the answer to?"
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It almost hurts to say.
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Right now, she doesn't want him to see it.
"You know the answers," she tells him, voice stiff and defensive. "I'm the same person I was at thirteen, at sixteen. I haven't changed."
He keeps expecting her to, just because their surroundings are different.
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"You're..." he takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly. "You're just like I remember." Full of life and fury and the inability to quit.
"I'm the one who changed." Whether he means being a hawk or aging without her... it's not clear. Maybe he doesn't know.
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He's older than she is, he's changed, and maybe he's left behind the things that-- don't fit anymore.
Rachel swallows and her bravery fails her. For a moment, her gaze flickers to the side of him, to the trees, the grass, anything but his eyes. "So what?" she demands, and would deny anyone who said her voice was hoarse.
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"I'm afraid..." he chokes on the rest. He can't say it. Can't admit it.
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Quickly, fast, rip it off like a band-aid and maybe whatever it is he has to say won't hurt as bad as she's afraid it might.
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Rachel swallows hard and looks away. They could have chosen a better place to do this than the farm, but at least they're a good distance from the farm.
"I haven't moved," she says after a moment, and makes her voice loud - defensive bravado in place of confidence, looking up at him with a glare in place of anything else that might appear in her eyes. "You can't lose me."
The only way he'll lose her is if he walks away himself.
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But then, maybe it is for him. Tobias has options, two morphs he feels at home in, he could find someone else. It's easy to fall in love with him - Rachel knows that.
But her?
She swallows again - her throat is tightening and it's getting harder and harder to do it. But she still manages to speak, manages not to make her voice break. "No one's making you stay with me."
She doesn't want to be just another disappointment in his life, just one more person that wasn't good enough for him.
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In angry, defensive, hurt rage.
"Do this to you?! To you?!" Her voice lifts into a shout, completely ignoring the farmhouse or any people outside. "You start all these weird, stupid arguments and you morph human to make a point, you tell me that you've changed and it's your fault that you're not happy with me, and I'm doing something to you?!"
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So he snaps his mouth shut and shakes his head sadly.
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There's so little she wouldn't do for him if he'd ask.
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Even if she can't quite ask the question in her mind.
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It's a sign of how out of practice he's gotten with human expressions that it takes him any time at all before he smooths his expression into a blank one. He hopes she doesn't notice.
He's almost sure she does.
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