shatterverse | (no subject)

Entry tags:

(no subject)

There is a little robot hanging around the Cooper farm.

No. No, not that one. That is a big robot.

This one's about the size, shape, and colour of a basketball. It's adorable as all hell and would be delighted to make your acquaintance.

Today, it is making its first foray into the Cooper house. People seem to congregate in the kitchen, so it hops up onto the table and swivels back to face the door.

Please do not mistake it for food.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

...Steve has to eat sometime. You know. Probably. That's what his stomach says, anyway, even if his brain is preoccupied with other things.

(Usually those other things are super awesome plans for super awesome inventions, but, uh, that's not exactly the case right now. You understand.)

When he steps through the door, he's faced with Neil and Haro and...

...

Haro extends an arm towards totally-not-Haro-it-lies-it-lies.

"Fake Haro! Fake Haro!"

Helplessly, to Steve: "D'you have any idea what's going on?"

"...Oh."

Steve is aware of his own distractibility, and right now he's leaping at any opportunities to be distracted. Plus: he recognises this phenomenon. Steve figures most of the farm has probably fallen victim to the little pink blob.

"Your robot has fallen victim to an infamous threat that lurks around the farm. It turns up now and then and turns into people."

"Really?"

He glances from Haro to Ditto and back.

"Can we ask it not to turn into my robot? Or into me, actually."

"Security breach. Security breach," Haro explains.

"Yeah, we tend to discourage it, but it doesn't pay much attention."

To the second Haro: "Hey. Stop it."

(...his voice is definitely more monotone than usual. What's that all about?)

"Security? Security?"

Ditto has no knowledge of this concept!

In fact, it sounds a little bewildered and upset, like a puppy who's been told off for performing a trick.

"...It even talks like him. Good God."

Neil frowns at Ditto.

(It doesn't occur to him that Steve doesn't know he knows. He assumes Val's informational largesse is an accepted principle around here.

Which might explain the hand he rests on the younger man's shoulder, or it might not.)

Soft: "Hey. You okay?"

Haro offers Ditto a GLARE OF GLAREY GLARENESS.

"Stoppit! Stoppit!"

D:

...

:(((

The imitation Haro slowly softens into something pinker and more blobby, and regards them all with a mournful look.

"Sure I'm okay."

Convincing Steve is... not so convincing. But definitely not rejecting the hand, because he could use all the comfort he can get right now.

"Look," nodding towards Ditto ~~to avoid looking at Neil~~, "there it goes."

"So I see."

He raises his visible eyebrow at Ditto.

"And don't do that again, okay? C'mon," this to Steve, "let's get out of its way before it gets the bright idea of turning into me."

With Haro resting against his hip, he steers Steve gently out towards the bunker and Dynames.

"Toooooo," says Ditto, puddling sulkily.

Steve would reinforce his claim to being okay, but

(he isn't, and he doesn't know if he's ever going to be, because Gabriel is dead and Steve knew that something like this was going to happen and he still didn't manage to stop it and even if he finished the cyborg research he still wouldn't be able to bring him back and)

he can't quite muster the enthusiasm. He just lets Neil propel him outside, concentrating on staying outwardly calm.

He stops when they're in Dynames' shadow. Haro bounces away towards the cockpit. The bright white glow on top of the mech's head is possibly dozing and certainly out of earshot.

At least for a conversation as quiet as the one Neil is planning.

"Now, I'd say look me in the eye and tell me you're fine, but I don't like encouraging dishonesty in my friends."

He's still got his left hand on Steve's shoulder. Now he brings the other one up to match.

"God knows it's probably not any of my business, but I do care, Steve. If you ever need somebody to talk to..."

Neil would be glad to assume the ~~wildly inappropriate in context~~ role of big brother here!

Steve's attempt to stay presentable is increasingly a losing battle, and he's still not looking at Neil because he doesn't want Neil to see the miserable look on his face.

But he's torn. Because as much as he doesn't want to stand here and unload all his woes on a guy he only met a week ago, he also wants someone -- that guy -- someone to hold him and tell him that it's all right and it's not his fault and it's all right.

His face has always been an open book; right now it's the denouement of a Shakespearean tragedy.

"I know what it's like to lose somebody," he says softly. "It hurts, but it'll get better."

--oh.

--so he knows.

--oh.

He draws in a careful, uneven breath, determined that speech won't lead to crying (because he's crying too much at the moment, interspersed with numbness, interspersed with undirected shaking rage), and asks the ground:

"Val told you?"

"Yeah."

His gloved fingers curl around Steve's shoulders in something that would be a hug if he had a little less respect for personal space.

Steve really wouldn't resent Neil at all for disrespecting his personal space; he's lost and he's scared and he's upset and he misses Gabriel and he's mad at Gabriel for going away and dying and he's ashamed of himself for being mad. In accordance with all this, his fluffy, dejected body language is more or less shouting I could use a hug.

"I shouldn't--"

That sentence was going to end in something like drag you into this, but here come those tears we knew were coming. Oops?

"Hey. Hey."

This? This is a hug. Complete with a hand coming up to wipe away those tears with gentle fingertips. The gloves make the gesture a little less personal, but not much.

"It's okay, Steve. You're gonna be okay. I promise."

Steve, who has never been the best at hiding his emotions, clings to Neil in shame and sorrow and gratitude.

"Why the -- fuck did he have t-to go?" This time, rather than the ground, Neil's shoulder has the honour of Steve's intimate address. "Why the fuck did he h-- hh--"

Soft: "I don't know."

And it doesn't really matter that much anymore.

What matters to Neil at the moment is Steve's well-being. Which means hugs. A lot of hugs.

There are no words.

There is only clinging.

It takes no prompting whatsoever to take Steve back to the basement under the ruined house, with a far smaller Spots burbling in the sink and Gabriel on the--

--He wrenches himself out of it, because now that memory hurts.

Or in the kitchen of the Cooper farm, with the conversation turning from normal to awkward to unexpectedly, blissfully--

Or in the bunker, shouting--

Or--